I had a long conversation with M. last night. It was a very good conversation and I learned quite a lot. We are going to meet for lunch today and she still wants to come to my birthday dinner tomorrow!
Those that are still praying for her, please continue. She really needs to feel the love of God and the people around her right now.
I hope things continue to go well between us.
I had a long conversation with “the girl” last night. It was a very good conversation and I learned quite a lot. We are going to meet for lunch today and she is still going to come to my birthday dinner tomorrow.
There are a few things that have happened in her life recently that she needs prayer for. Somethings were hard for her to talk about and some were not. I am purpously being vague because of a specific issue.
It doesn’t bother me, but she thought it could. She thought it would drive me away, but I am more mature than that. I enjoyed hearing the relief in her voice when I said that I would stand by her.
It was a good conversation.
I feel like I need to lay down for a year or so. It’s almost like when you have a lot of stress for a while and then it goes away… It’s a wierd feeling.
I had all this anticipation for the comedy show with M. tonight, but it all went away about an hour and a half ago.
She had to cancel on me…
I feel like I need to lay down for a year or so. I had all this anticipation for the comedy show with “the girl” tonight, but it all went away about an hour and a half ago.
I got a text message from her saying “I am sorry. I’m gonna have to cancel tonight. I’m not feeling well.” I was driving when it happened, so instead of replying via text message, I tried calling her. It rang a couple of times and then I got sent to voicemail.
Just when I was thinking that things with her seemed to be going well, this happens and causes pessimism to break through.
I know there are a multitude of scenarios that it could be; she could really be not feeling well and instead of letting me know this morning, she was waiting to see if she would start feeling better by tonight…
But, my pessimistic thought is that she is not all that interested in me anymore, if she ever really was… The main reason for me thinking this is that when she asked if I wanted to go with her tonight, she was at work and didn’t have the information about time and place with her. She said that she would get back to me when she got home. I took that to mean either later Sunday night or yesterday at most. I would have called her last night, but I didn’t want her to feel smothered (which could of been the wrong thing to do), but I instead elected to wait until she contacted me (like she said she would) with the info.
Then she cancels on me with a text message. And after thinking about it, I feel like she hit “ignore” when I called her…
I guess I will know more later this week. In the voicemail I left her, I suggested that we go out for lunch on Thursday because that was the other option that she gave me if I couldn’t make it to the show tonight. And the original event that I asked her out to is my birthday dinner this Friday. She originally said that she “would love to go” and now I am wondering if she is still thinking the same.
I don’t know. This is what I hate about the beginning. I wish we had pheromones like bugs do that explicitly say “yes, I am interested” or “not a chance, get away”…
